Here I am...

weight experience

Entry posted by Sistart · January 18, 2019

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Hello, here I am, today it's my "curvage birthday", I feel so excited, been through a lot of things this year, different feelings, but now my mind is clear and calmed, also I'm feeling like never before with myself.

One year ago, by recommendation, I decided to create my profile, was kind of nervous, no, was really nervous, "am I going to make a good impression?" I said, the struggle was real and I felt so tiny compared to other girls.

Then I started to upload my pictures, and in here I have to thank you all for your nice reaction, obviously I got excited and tried to make post periodically, really didn't expected to have that acceptance and made me feel motivated to keep gaining weight.

Time passes... I see how other beautiful models keep emerging, and how everyone is gaining weight "so fast" except me... Why can't I grow like them? And started to compare myself with others. I completely understand that every body is different, but in those moments was feeling frustrated, I mean, so many months and couldn't achieve my inicial goal, and with that frustration came sadness.

And if that wasn't enough... My family started to make comments about my weight: "you're getting gordita again", "you should exercise", "you should make a diet", were some of the things they told me (and keep telling me, also my family means a lot to me, that's why it hurts so bad).

I felt like I was in a limbo, wasn't skinny enough for society but didn't feel fatty enough for the community. Even with all the supportive comments (really appreciated 💜), not only my weight and my physical aspect, I was feeling like I wasn't enough, for nothing. And sadly this lasted for a while.

Luckily I have my super supportive person, that worked hard on me, also meet so amazing people in here that are "so good to talk to", not only about weight or feederism, but about things in general, thanks for being there too.

Now, here I am, after so long, but finally achieved my first weight goal, now I'm looking forward to the next one, learned that all that matters is me (for me, lol), and now when someone tells me something rude about my weight, I make jokes about it. And I'm feeling happy about everything, sexy and hungry.