I hope you are happy throughout your journey! A happy person is always more attractive then a person of a certain size or goal. So if the physical aspect of it starts making you unhappy then you can stop and utilize the mental aspect of your fantasy.
But you seem happy so far and you are very pretty. Quite frankly, you are making me proud of my own Dutch DNA.
I hope you have someone who knows how to utilize the mental aspect of your fantasy too...not only the physical. By the way if you don't may I ask your boyfriend to:
PASS THE DUTCHIE!