tollerman2

I'll echo what another reviewer said and praise the vulnerability of this video. As someone who recently had a bit of a reckoning with my own health post-weightgain, this video spoke to me in a really, really personal way. I have a complicated relationship with my body and my fatness from a cultural standpoint, a health standpoint, a sexual standpoint, and an emotional-self standpoint. Having this fetish is often a confusing and contradictory thing as all those factors swirl around each other, not mention the how they intermingle with the views of people like partners, doctors, or even just passersby. I appreciate how you visited some really authentic places in this video. Feelings of shame, of frustration, of discomfort. I too have hidden the body that I secretly relished the expansion of. I too have wanted NOT to be seen. I too have hated and loved my body at the exact same time, and worried about how those feelings may or may not affect my future. These feelings aren't erotic to everyone -- I'm not even sure if they're erotic to me -- but they're real. I think there needs to be space to hear them expressed, eroticized, and identified with. I think it's important to remember that erotic models are in fact creating pieces of art, and that true, holistic appreciation of an artform involves grappling with complex pieces and the complex feelings those pieces inspire.

Cracking up at how this feels like a podcast