lurkwell

I feel called out and have to defend my FA honor... Not really, but being forwarded this thread directly via text I feel like I owe an abbreviated personal history of my FA-ness. Much of what KFD said mirrors my own hard-wired past with this, since I too was around for fatcelebs. I remember Brooke, GainingGoddess, the bad website we don't mention, and the countless random pictures of anonymous fat girls circulating the web at the turn of the century. It was the dark ages, but there was enough light there to point to and say "YES, LIKE THAT!" I can't say I was magnetically drawn to obese women as a child, but I knew asap that the girls who got fat over summer vacation were the hot ones when school started back up in the fall. I was late-ish to the dating scene but I had no hesitation in high school about pursuing the fat girls I had crushes on. However, I wish I could say my attractions were unilaterally for the fats... In jest of the 'coming out' trope, I am without a doubt bisizual. Probably a dash of bisexual (or rather pansexual?) but thats another story. I like the girls I think are hot. Wether they're thin, fat, muscular, morbidly obese, trans, ace, cute, handsome, weird looking, white, black, mixed race, there is literally no common factor. I wish I could explain or understand it but Ive honestly given up trying, it is what it is. The complicating factors for me was not that my friends or family would judge me for dating fat girls, that never stopped me for a second. The most negatively influencing thing on my dating was a two fold attack of: fat girls hating the way they looked and assuming I wasn't attracted to them thin girls assuming I ONLY liked fat girls and assuming I wasn't attracted to them Mix that with college, alcohol, meeting girls off the internet (rip myspace), I was left with a lot of bad dating experiences. On the tail end of undergrad I finally started realizing that feederism wasn't just a weird thing that strangers in Canada did. As my dating pool shifted from early 20s to late 20s, metabolisms slowed down and years of partying started catching up. It was like ALL the girls were coming back fatter not just from summer vacation, but rolling admission of formerly thin girls getting fat. I was a pseudo-active member here until Mal. We had a few interactions via Facebook and when she dissappeared the first time I couldn't help but feel like unconventional attention from 'us' here at the "get fatter" party was to blame. So I went silent, didn't want to be part of the problem and just disengaged from the 'feeder' identity for a while. After a few years of dating no-one (long story *not prison*) I doubled down and decided I would pursue openly feedee girls off of the usual (the only?) profile based website for Feedee/Feeder interaction. And despite a few close calls, no dice. But those close calls proved that the more energy I spent in this direction, the realer the results got. Met and dated a super hot fat chick for a while. She was too jealous to function and that went about as bad as possible. But I had no doubt I was attracted to her, so I tried to make it work for way too long. Then tried Interacting with a few hardcore dedicated feedees but meeting anyone online is hard enough without trying to navigate long distance first dates. But after a decade of actively looking, one of these girls took a chance on my anonymous ass. The End.