Taytay

Hey lovelies,
So, it's no secret I wear my heart on my sleeves, if you've seen my videos I'm fairly sure that's obvious. Honestly feeling kind of discouraged all around.
Firstly, to those of you who do buy my videos, comment, like, etc., thank you! You really are the reason I do this so just know that I appreciate you guys so so much. 
I really try to not base my own self worth on my sales, but this is my full-time job, and I've put a lot of time and money into them (even lowered prices for you) and I'm hardly selling anything. I'm trying to put out the best content I can, and I'll be getting some new equipment soon to make it even better, but I really need your help. I'm in constant pain with my wisdom tooth situation, and at this rate I won't be able to get it taken care of until maybe March. So, please, if you have a video of mine in your wishlist, it really is going to a good cause. I've literally cried because I'm so hungry but my jaw hurts so bad I can't eat. If you want me to keep gaining, like I want to, buy my content. 
 
 
I've also had some messages across various platforms telling me my videos are too expensive (y'all realize industry standard is $1/minute and I'm almost always between 30-50¢/minute), and I'm honestly sick of being devalued for what I do. So I figured I'd give you an inside look at what my "job" looks like, using an average stuffing video for example.
1. Besides the occasional help of my boyfriend, I do everything for my videos myself.
2. It takes me about 8-10 hours of work on a single video. Don't believe me?
• Hair, makeup, and background/equipment setup will take about 1.5 hours
•I'm a slow eater, so I generally have about 1-1.5 hours of actual footage for a stuffing video
•time to edit! That  1.5 hours of footage, yeah I now have to go through and watch that and cut what I can to make a condensed video for you to enjoy. I typically have to go through 2-4 times: an initial cut getting rid of any major pauses in eating, leaving the room to get water, sneezes, etc. Then the second time through making sure I don't have repeat sentences (I get tongue tied a lot 😅) and just checking for overall flow. Most of my videos have background music that I have to add. On those videos I have a quick scan through again to place music, and a second by second one to fix the volume levels so I don't blast your eardrums. All in all... Minimum of 4 hours of editing every time. (Not even including rendering times!)
•Time to upload! Hey guess what, I post on 6 different sites, my current set-up can't handle more than one upload at a time, and each time can take anywhere from 10 minutes to an hour, usually about 2-3 hours to upload everywhere.
I'm not even going to mention how much money I've invested into better equipment here. 
At the highest estimate that's 10.5 hours on a 20 minute clip that I turn around and sell for less than $10, usually about $8 in fact. 
The next time you want to criticize a model for her rates, remember this.
Would you do your job for <$1 an hour? 

Hello All!! 
So im really enjoying being a Feedee... I get to eat all these amazing big meals. I don’t count calories my amazing boyfriend/ Feeder gives me bites and I feel no guilt! I crave snacks and I get them! Grocery shopping has become a weekly thing as I cook so much! Well because I’m eating so much! My body is growing .... so very much! 
With the growing I am doing I am very surprised that I don’t have so many new stretch marks. Stretch marks was one thing I was fearful of ... once I started gaining. I am happy to say that I’ve kept my skin moisturized and not only do I have less stretch marks than I thought I’d have but I’m also SUPER SOFT AND GLOWING! I am so lucky that my feeder loves to rub and massage my belly once I’m stuffed! ( good idea for a video right?) 
Growing means gaining ... gaining means growing. I know that I’m growing but my clothes aren’t growing with me. So ... some of my outfits are a little tighter, some of my undies don’t fit the same.  I’m very excited about this as it shows in my clothes how much I’ve gained. I’ve probably gone up two dress sizes ... my breast explode out of my bras and my feeder is loving this! I may have to go shopping for some new outfits or I might just enjoy rocking my new round curves in tight fitting outfits. 
Im excited to grow and I’m ready to have fuller bigger breasts!!! I can’t wait to go shopping once nothing really fits! 
Xoxo Curvy Cannabis Cat 
 
 
 

It comes over me without warning, like a massive wave suddenly crashing over a calm sea. And out of the blue I begin to eat. Oh not your average three meals a day kind of eating. Not even the kind of eating that comes from boredom, stress, or any other mental or emotional malady.  No, it's the kind of eating that serves only one purpose, to get bigger.
I think of a bear preparing for hibernation or a pregnant body that instinctively knows it's eating for two.  This deep primal urge that says eat, eat like your very life depends on it. And I do.   I'm never really aware of my own intentions at first. Oh, after a while I see all the signs. They were there, screaming at me, I just ignored them. My body tried to tell me. It began to bloat with the retention of fluid and the slowing of digestion. My libido tried to tell me as desire crept in and my nipples became persistently hard and demanding. And then of course there was the eating.    Looking back,  I always know. I know my fetish has been denied too long and it will not be ignored. My urges to feed someone else, to run my hands over a their hard round belly, to hear them moan and belch as they struggle to be comfortable after gorging, those urges are too strong. And so my body decides for me, without a willing partner I will simply have to make do alone, with my body. And I eat.   I eat too fast, too much, for too long. By the the time I decide to consciously acknowledge what I've begun it's too late. I'm not able, or maybe willing, to stop. My belly is already bloated and bulging. My clothes are already way to tight. I'm already horny. Why stop now?   And so I don't.  I spend a day, no usually way more, stuffing my already fat body. Secretly I eat five or six meals more than the normal daily three. I hide the evidence of my binging; wearing my largest and baggiest fat clothes, burying empty food containers under other trash, stashing take out and leftovers in the back of the refrigerator for later, eating boxes of pastry in a parking lot, going to two or three drive up restaurants in a row. All in the hopes of finding lustful satisfaction in a body made bigger than it's ever been. Massive, and stuffed, and bursting at the seams.   It's thrilling and so arousing, but also embarrassing and truly disturbing.  And yet,  once again, I document it. Maybe for some kind of vanity,  so I can look back and say "see what you did". Or maybe, and more likely,  it's all part of the obsession. Create this enormous, fat, moaning, stuffed pig and then use it for not only my own pleasure but that of other's. I mean I understand their desires after all, they are my desires too.    But sadly,  when the waves subside and the water is still once more, it's just my body again. Not a sex toy, like some blow up doll I can over inflate at will when the urges grip me. And back in my right mind I'm left with guilt, remorse, regret. Not to mention the suffering and pain that days of gluttony do to a person. And of course a fat, round, swelled up body that is too old to recover the way it used to. So, I just get a bit fatter ever time.    Yeah,  it's the most exciting fucking thing in the world when it's happening. But when it's over, ugh. Just ugh. I'm miserable and so ashamed. And then I swear it's the last time. I'll resist my desires all together. Or maybe just keep using my partner's fat body as a means of fulfilling my fetish through fantasy alone. My imagination is amazingly vivid and really quite limitless. I don't need all the bells and whistles, he's fat, that's enough. I don't need the real thing after all. Right?    Sure. Right. Play the imagination game. Watch some videos. Chat with some fellow sufferers. Imagine what you could be doing with your fat partner. It'll be enough.    Enough. That's kind of a funny word. At least for a gluttonous fat fetishist.  ENOUGH.  Good one. Especially since I've just realized I'm well on my way through a box of breakfast cereal as I write this.     Here we go again. 

Good afternoon!
Sorry  for not posting last night, I was extremely stuffed and experiencing a major food coma
Anyways, I thought it might be kind of nice to start a basic "get to know me" type blog. This is where I will answer the most common questions that I get asked. This is also where you are encouraged to ask me ANY questions you may have. 
To start I will just give you the basics:
*Age: 24 
*Height: 5 feet 2 inches 
*Weight: 260-265 lbs
*Bisexual
*Pisces
 *Green Eyes/Left Handed
*Feedee/Bbw feeder and admirer
*Favorite Drink: Milkshakes!
* Favorite food: Butter Burger 
* Favorite Dessert: Tirimasu
* Favorite Musician: Sage Francis
* Pastimes: Hiking, Longboarding, yoha
Frequent Questions:
*What does your family say about your weight gain?
Well my family is german, in Germany they have a special time hust for desert every day. I used to be way thinner that all of my other family memebers, so they used to tease me for it. When my family started to see me gain weight they were happy and relieved. 
* Is it harded for you to do physical things like climb the stairs?
As much as you would like me to say yes, i wont lie, the answer is no. I love hiking, yoga, and Longboarding waaaayyy too much to give em up. I plan on living a long and happy life. 
*Do you have a goal in minf for your weight? 
Ive recently decided that my goal is 300lbs and no higher than 350lbs.
 
This blog is still being written.. Feel free to send me some questions to put here!

HI HI!! 
 Just been meaning to do this for a while now! I want to devote this section of my blog to video requests! So just comment those here and i will try to do as many as i can as quickly as I can! No nudity sorry!! 

Okay so I have been getting asked these two questions ever since the noticable beginning of my gain. 
1) What is my secret to how I gain very quickly only in my belly?
2) How much or how many of this or that can you eat or drink in one sitting?  
I'm going to do my best to answer these for you ;D
Firstly, to the best of my knowledge, my Genes are probably the dominant factor when it comes to how and where I wear my extra poundage! I am no scientist but I believe that is a huge factor for everyone, no body can completely control it no matter how much effort you put forth. Now, when it comes to how I have gained so quickly, I do not have a secret or any kind of magic answer that will make you gain 100lbs before the year is up! I truly believe my metabolism plays an ENORMOUS part, I just eat a ton of bread, ice cream, and pasta. Along with that I drink about 1 gallon of 2% milk every day. All that combined with my snail-paced metabolism has literally made me blow up fast!
As far a quantities that I can consume, I honestly have a hard time keeping track. I am a hug food lover, I eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat absentmindedly because I love the taste of something, I am powerless to my taste buds and my belly. I really couldn't lose weight even if I tried because I can't say no to my belly! It thinks for me more often than not.. and it is always hungry.
Well, I hope you enjoyed that, I sure did   ;D 

Its nights like this make me think entirely too much about everything.  Normally I can cure it by listening to music, but tonight, my head prevails.  When people see me,  in person or in picture,  they must see somebody who is gorgeous and confident.  I am both of those things but what many fail to see is the complexity behind my eyes.  
Sometimes everything feels so amplified and dramatic. When I laugh and smile, I do so with every fiber of my being. Opposite of that,  when I am sad or when I cry,  It is an all consuming sadness.  It is a deep dark and quiet blue, a lonely space that only I can enter.  It is not commonly understood by my peers,  except for those who have experienced bipolar disorder.  
Now I have found that writing about random things can pull me out of this painful bliss long enough to talk some sense in to my self.  "things aren't so bad,  you have people that love the fuck out of you,  you treat others with kindness, and you're beautiful to boot. " and repeat. And repeat. I hope one day to find a pleasant lavender shaded place to live,  absent of any blue.  Lacking the white static of the mind controlling mania.  A naturally beautiful place that is not created by a chemically induced fog. For the first time in a long time, IT FEELS POSSIBLE! 

Good afternoon!
Sorry  for not posting last night, I was extremely stuffed and experiencing a major food coma
Anyways, I thought it might be kind of nice to start a basic "get to know me" type blog. This is where I will answer the most common questions that I get asked. This is also where you are encouraged to ask me ANY questions you may have. 
To start I will just give you the basics:
*Age: 24 
*Height: 5 feet 2 inches 
*Weight: 260-265 lbs
*Bisexual
*Pisces
 *Green Eyes/Left Handed
*Feedee/Bbw feeder and admirer
*Favorite Drink: Milkshakes!
* Favorite food: Butter Burger 
* Favorite Dessert: Tirimasu
* Favorite Musician: Sage Francis
* Pastimes: Hiking, Longboarding, yoha
Frequent Questions:
*What does your family say about your weight gain?
Well my family is german, in Germany they have a special time hust for desert every day. I used to be way thinner that all of my other family memebers, so they used to tease me for it. When my family started to see me gain weight they were happy and relieved. 
* Is it harded for you to do physical things like climb the stairs?
As much as you would like me to say yes, i wont lie, the answer is no. I love hiking, yoga, and Longboarding waaaayyy too much to give em up. I plan on living a long and happy life. 
*Do you have a goal in minf for your weight? 
Ive recently decided that my goal is 300lbs and no higher than 350lbs.
 
This blog is still being written.. Feel free to send me some questions to put here!

Why does Piglet have a chain around her neck?
Collar
When you see my content you may notice I have a chain around my neck. This is not mainly to look cute af but its also a part of my headspace as a little/pet (BDSM) where my partner has "collared" me. Only they have the key to unlock it and I have no way to take it off without their permission. 
The collar is a symbol to show that I belong to them♡
This collar was placed around my neck after we were together for 1year and they showed that they care and understand my kinks and fetishes. This collar is worn 24/7 unless they decide to remove it or I ask for permission as they aee the handler of my key.Collar
Ownership
For my role in the BDSM community, I am a submissive. But as a submissive there are dominance roles as you allow a "dom" to dominate you. Without your permission and concent they are unable to dom.
In my vinalla life our relationship is well known; i.e., that we are a couple. But as I dove more into BDSM we wanted to kake sure that people knew I was not looking for any partners. Thats when collaring was discussed. I had to prove to my partner that I would only be a true submissive for them and would not overstep any boundaries. Once I proved I was able to do so, they placed this collar around my neck as a symbol to people in the BSDM community that I am NOT on the market/looking for anyone for a relationship.
I am my partners baby girl🎀
 
But even tho I am owned by my partner, you all still get a peak into my life as a fat baby piglet (scandalous) hehe . As im able to interact with anyone I please 😘
🐷Oink Oink🐷

Realization:
Todays entry will revolve around how I initially discovered my current fantasies and sexual preferences.
The first sexual feelings inside of me were awakened fairly early.. I noticed that every movie I watched with a "bad guy" gave me strange and unfamiliar feelings. The villians always seemed to fascinate me in the strangest way. These feelings eventually turned in to fantasies, almost every one of these fantasies involved me being held hostage by these "bad guys". Eventaully these fantasies morphed into fantasies of being held hostage and being fed until I couldnt move. 
As some of you may know, I am bi sexual. I like my women how I like myself, chubby and submissive. I discovered my love of embarrassing poor lil chubby chicks in 5th grade. The fattest girl in my catholic elementary school class (mary) went against the school policy of only having one piece of pizza on friday (every friday was pizza day). After lunch, the button flew off of her skin tight pants and she turned bright red as our teacher accused her of being greedy and grabbing an extra slice yet again! This added a whole new dimension to my fantasies. When I got bored of my kidnapping fantasies, I would switch to fantasies of teasing mary about her greediness and her ever-shrinking clothes.
Well thats about it for todays entry! now If anybody is feeling up to it and you have any similiar stories go ahead and post them here! I am certainly looking forward to it!
Thanks
TayTay

So since the holidays are very quickly approaching,  I wanted to share some recipes that I love with you guys! (both holiday and non-holiday related!) I would also like to dedicate this part of the blog as somewhere that you guys can share great recipes of all kinds with me.. 😏
1)SLOW COOKER RIBS!  (MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE!)  
Okay first things first, the rub:
1 1/2 tablespoons paprika 1 1/2 tablespoons packed brown sugar 2 teaspoons salt 2 teaspoons chili powder 2 teaspoons garlic powder 1 teaspoon ground chipotle pepper 1 teaspoon black pepper 1 teaspoons onion powder 1/2 teaspoon dried thyme 1/4 teaspoon cayenne pepper (optional for more heat mix that all together and after you wash, dry, and cut your ribs in to about 4 chunks, rub it on! 
Now bake for 15 minutes on 400, flip and 15 minutes again! 
Spray slow cooker with cooking spray
Next completely coat the ribs in your choice of barbecue sauce. 
You can put them in the slow cooker either:
*on low for 7-9 hours
*or on high for 4-6 hours
flip once or twice halfway through and they are done!  Mmm
2) CANDIED ACORN SQUASH! 
You can start by cutting your squash in half (or fourths if desired), clean seeds and guts out completely.
Cut about 10 small slits all over the squashes "meat" (the part you will be eating) put about a quarter stick of butter per half. Next,  add a generous amount of cinnamon and sugar (to taste) 
Cover squash with foil and bake in 1 hour increments at 450 degrees.  Check for softness every hour (if you cannot easily slice with a spoon it is not ready yet!) you may want to add a little more of the butter, cinnamon, sugar.  You will want to still see a pool of butter every time you put it back in. 
Once it is good and soft you can add sugar and eat as is..  Or you can scoop it all in to a bowl with a cup of milk,another quarter stick of butter, sugar,  cinnamon,  and mash until all lumps are gone. For all you guys trying to sneak some extra calories in to girlfriends dinners, this is a dish that anyone with a sweet tooth cant and wont say no to! (and squash is still a veggie.. Hehe..) If you use whole milk or cream it can be a good 5 pounds waiting to happen! Trust me,  I would know...  😉
I will add more as I think of them.  If I get any recipes commented here I will add them as well!  Thanks!! 🐖

So since the holidays are very quickly approaching,  I wanted to share some recipes that I love with you guys! (both holiday and non-holiday related!) I would also like to dedicate this part of the blog as somewhere that you guys can share great recipes of all kinds with me.. 😏
1)SLOW COOKER RIBS!  (MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE!)  
Okay first things first, the rub:
1 1/2 tablespoons paprika 1 1/2 tablespoons packed brown sugar 2 teaspoons salt 2 teaspoons chili powder 2 teaspoons garlic powder 1 teaspoon ground chipotle pepper 1 teaspoon black pepper 1 teaspoons onion powder 1/2 teaspoon dried thyme 1/4 teaspoon cayenne pepper (optional for more heat mix that all together and after you wash, dry, and cut your ribs in to about 4 chunks, rub it on! 
Now bake for 15 minutes on 400, flip and 15 minutes again! 
Spray slow cooker with cooking spray
Next completely coat the ribs in your choice of barbecue sauce. 
You can put them in the slow cooker either:
*on low for 7-9 hours
*or on high for 4-6 hours
flip once or twice halfway through and they are done!  Mmm
2) CANDIED ACORN SQUASH! 
You can start by cutting your squash in half (or fourths if desired), clean seeds and guts out completely.
Cut about 10 small slits all over the squashes "meat" (the part you will be eating) put about a quarter stick of butter per half. Next,  add a generous amount of cinnamon and sugar (to taste) 
Cover squash with foil and bake in 1 hour increments at 450 degrees.  Check for softness every hour (if you cannot easily slice with a spoon it is not ready yet!) you may want to add a little more of the butter, cinnamon, sugar.  You will want to still see a pool of butter every time you put it back in. 
Once it is good and soft you can add sugar and eat as is..  Or you can scoop it all in to a bowl with a cup of milk,another quarter stick of butter, sugar,  cinnamon,  and mash until all lumps are gone. For all you guys trying to sneak some extra calories in to girlfriends dinners, this is a dish that anyone with a sweet tooth cant and wont say no to! (and squash is still a veggie.. Hehe..) If you use whole milk or cream it can be a good 5 pounds waiting to happen! Trust me,  I would know...  😉
I will add more as I think of them.  If I get any recipes commented here I will add them as well!  Thanks!! 🐖

So since the holidays are very quickly approaching,  I wanted to share some recipes that I love with you guys! (both holiday and non-holiday related!) I would also like to dedicate this part of the blog as somewhere that you guys can share great recipes of all kinds with me.. 😏
1)SLOW COOKER RIBS!  (MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE!)  
Okay first things first, the rub:
1 1/2 tablespoons paprika 1 1/2 tablespoons packed brown sugar 2 teaspoons salt 2 teaspoons chili powder 2 teaspoons garlic powder 1 teaspoon ground chipotle pepper 1 teaspoon black pepper 1 teaspoons onion powder 1/2 teaspoon dried thyme 1/4 teaspoon cayenne pepper (optional for more heat mix that all together and after you wash, dry, and cut your ribs in to about 4 chunks, rub it on! 
Now bake for 15 minutes on 400, flip and 15 minutes again! 
Spray slow cooker with cooking spray
Next completely coat the ribs in your choice of barbecue sauce. 
You can put them in the slow cooker either:
*on low for 7-9 hours
*or on high for 4-6 hours
flip once or twice halfway through and they are done!  Mmm
2) CANDIED ACORN SQUASH! 
You can start by cutting your squash in half (or fourths if desired), clean seeds and guts out completely.
Cut about 10 small slits all over the squashes "meat" (the part you will be eating) put about a quarter stick of butter per half. Next,  add a generous amount of cinnamon and sugar (to taste) 
Cover squash with foil and bake in 1 hour increments at 450 degrees.  Check for softness every hour (if you cannot easily slice with a spoon it is not ready yet!) you may want to add a little more of the butter, cinnamon, sugar.  You will want to still see a pool of butter every time you put it back in. 
Once it is good and soft you can add sugar and eat as is..  Or you can scoop it all in to a bowl with a cup of milk,another quarter stick of butter, sugar,  cinnamon,  and mash until all lumps are gone. For all you guys trying to sneak some extra calories in to girlfriends dinners, this is a dish that anyone with a sweet tooth cant and wont say no to! (and squash is still a veggie.. Hehe..) If you use whole milk or cream it can be a good 5 pounds waiting to happen! Trust me,  I would know...  😉
I will add more as I think of them.  If I get any recipes commented here I will add them as well!  Thanks!! 🐖

I have done something similar to this on my forum but I dug up some more reeeaalllyyy old photos and wow you can see the transition of  my self confidence on my face as the pics progress!! ENJOY!!

Good morning curvage! 
Okay so I am very interested to have you guys and gals answer me a question please!
In your own individual and personal opinions what draws the line between a BIG BEAUTIFUL WOMAN and A SUPER SIZED BIG BEAUTIFUL WOMAN? What are (in your own opinions) some physical examples and weight ranges that classify a bbw and an ssbbw? I know everybody's answers will be a little different, but I just thought this would be a fun blog question. 
And let me just add in this question: If you were forced to choose (knowing that my weight is over 275lbs) would you classify me as a bbw or an ssbbw! 

Hey there!!  
So since I frequently get compliments and questions about my wardrobe (here and in my daily life!), I have  decided to do an ongoing fashion blog!  Im not sure how I will organize it yet, but Im thinking I will most likely post just a few pics of what I wore for the day, for mostly every day.  I will try to add where I got my outfit and sometimes shoes (if i remember!), and what size the clothing is.  If you have any questions beyond the information that I provide just ask!  I have become somewhat of an expert at dressing my rapidly growing figure.  It has been no easy task seeing as my hips are so much bigger than the rest of me! 
 
October 7th 2017:

Dress: Target.  Size: XXL
October 8th 2017:

 
October 9th 2017:

Size: XXL
 
October 29th 2017:

Dress: Target
Size: XXL
 
 

I have done something similar to this on my forum but I dug up some more reeeaalllyyy old photos and wow you can see the transition of  my self confidence on my face as the pics progress!! ENJOY!!

Hey there!!  
So since I frequently get compliments and questions about my wardrobe (here and in my daily life!), I have  decided to do an ongoing fashion blog!  Im not sure how I will organize it yet, but Im thinking I will most likely post just a few pics of what I wore for the day, for mostly every day.  I will try to add where I got my outfit and sometimes shoes (if i remember!), and what size the clothing is.  If you have any questions beyond the information that I provide just ask!  I have become somewhat of an expert at dressing my rapidly growing figure.  It has been no easy task seeing as my hips are so much bigger than the rest of me! 
 
October 7th 2017:

Dress: Target.  Size: XXL
October 8th 2017:

 
October 9th 2017:

Size: XXL
 
October 29th 2017:

Dress: Target
Size: XXL
 
 

HI HI!! 
 Just been meaning to do this for a while now! I want to devote this section of my blog to video requests! So just comment those here and i will try to do as many as i can as quickly as I can! No nudity sorry!! 

Okay so I have been getting asked these two questions ever since the noticable beginning of my gain. 
1) What is my secret to how I gain very quickly only in my belly?
2) How much or how many of this or that can you eat or drink in one sitting?  
I'm going to do my best to answer these for you ;D
Firstly, to the best of my knowledge, my Genes are probably the dominant factor when it comes to how and where I wear my extra poundage! I am no scientist but I believe that is a huge factor for everyone, no body can completely control it no matter how much effort you put forth. Now, when it comes to how I have gained so quickly, I do not have a secret or any kind of magic answer that will make you gain 100lbs before the year is up! I truly believe my metabolism plays an ENORMOUS part, I just eat a ton of bread, ice cream, and pasta. Along with that I drink about 1 gallon of 2% milk every day. All that combined with my snail-paced metabolism has literally made me blow up fast!
As far a quantities that I can consume, I honestly have a hard time keeping track. I am a hug food lover, I eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat absentmindedly because I love the taste of something, I am powerless to my taste buds and my belly. I really couldn't lose weight even if I tried because I can't say no to my belly! It thinks for me more often than not.. and it is always hungry.
Well, I hope you enjoyed that, I sure did   ;D 

I have done something similar to this on my forum but I dug up some more reeeaalllyyy old photos and wow you can see the transition of  my self confidence on my face as the pics progress!! ENJOY!!

Okay so I have been getting asked these two questions ever since the noticable beginning of my gain. 
1) What is my secret to how I gain very quickly only in my belly?
2) How much or how many of this or that can you eat or drink in one sitting?  
I'm going to do my best to answer these for you ;D
Firstly, to the best of my knowledge, my Genes are probably the dominant factor when it comes to how and where I wear my extra poundage! I am no scientist but I believe that is a huge factor for everyone, no body can completely control it no matter how much effort you put forth. Now, when it comes to how I have gained so quickly, I do not have a secret or any kind of magic answer that will make you gain 100lbs before the year is up! I truly believe my metabolism plays an ENORMOUS part, I just eat a ton of bread, ice cream, and pasta. Along with that I drink about 1 gallon of 2% milk every day. All that combined with my snail-paced metabolism has literally made me blow up fast!
As far a quantities that I can consume, I honestly have a hard time keeping track. I am a hug food lover, I eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat absentmindedly because I love the taste of something, I am powerless to my taste buds and my belly. I really couldn't lose weight even if I tried because I can't say no to my belly! It thinks for me more often than not.. and it is always hungry.
Well, I hope you enjoyed that, I sure did   ;D 

Okay so I have been getting asked these two questions ever since the noticable beginning of my gain. 
1) What is my secret to how I gain very quickly only in my belly?
2) How much or how many of this or that can you eat or drink in one sitting?  
I'm going to do my best to answer these for you ;D
Firstly, to the best of my knowledge, my Genes are probably the dominant factor when it comes to how and where I wear my extra poundage! I am no scientist but I believe that is a huge factor for everyone, no body can completely control it no matter how much effort you put forth. Now, when it comes to how I have gained so quickly, I do not have a secret or any kind of magic answer that will make you gain 100lbs before the year is up! I truly believe my metabolism plays an ENORMOUS part, I just eat a ton of bread, ice cream, and pasta. Along with that I drink about 1 gallon of 2% milk every day. All that combined with my snail-paced metabolism has literally made me blow up fast!
As far a quantities that I can consume, I honestly have a hard time keeping track. I am a hug food lover, I eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat absentmindedly because I love the taste of something, I am powerless to my taste buds and my belly. I really couldn't lose weight even if I tried because I can't say no to my belly! It thinks for me more often than not.. and it is always hungry.
Well, I hope you enjoyed that, I sure did   ;D 

Okay so I have been getting asked these two questions ever since the noticable beginning of my gain. 
1) What is my secret to how I gain very quickly only in my belly?
2) How much or how many of this or that can you eat or drink in one sitting?  
I'm going to do my best to answer these for you ;D
Firstly, to the best of my knowledge, my Genes are probably the dominant factor when it comes to how and where I wear my extra poundage! I am no scientist but I believe that is a huge factor for everyone, no body can completely control it no matter how much effort you put forth. Now, when it comes to how I have gained so quickly, I do not have a secret or any kind of magic answer that will make you gain 100lbs before the year is up! I truly believe my metabolism plays an ENORMOUS part, I just eat a ton of bread, ice cream, and pasta. Along with that I drink about 1 gallon of 2% milk every day. All that combined with my snail-paced metabolism has literally made me blow up fast!
As far a quantities that I can consume, I honestly have a hard time keeping track. I am a hug food lover, I eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat absentmindedly because I love the taste of something, I am powerless to my taste buds and my belly. I really couldn't lose weight even if I tried because I can't say no to my belly! It thinks for me more often than not.. and it is always hungry.
Well, I hope you enjoyed that, I sure did   ;D 

Its nights like this make me think entirely too much about everything.  Normally I can cure it by listening to music, but tonight, my head prevails.  When people see me,  in person or in picture,  they must see somebody who is gorgeous and confident.  I am both of those things but what many fail to see is the complexity behind my eyes.  
Sometimes everything feels so amplified and dramatic. When I laugh and smile, I do so with every fiber of my being. Opposite of that,  when I am sad or when I cry,  It is an all consuming sadness.  It is a deep dark and quiet blue, a lonely space that only I can enter.  It is not commonly understood by my peers,  except for those who have experienced bipolar disorder.  
Now I have found that writing about random things can pull me out of this painful bliss long enough to talk some sense in to my self.  "things aren't so bad,  you have people that love the fuck out of you,  you treat others with kindness, and you're beautiful to boot. " and repeat. And repeat. I hope one day to find a pleasant lavender shaded place to live,  absent of any blue.  Lacking the white static of the mind controlling mania.  A naturally beautiful place that is not created by a chemically induced fog. For the first time in a long time, IT FEELS POSSIBLE!