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  1. 1250619951_dominospizzastuffingbeforeafter.thumb.png.07216b3409e6ce70c2c11393f1253107.png  Check out my thread, will post some more .gif's tonight 😘

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    1. StuffitInn

      StuffitInn

      Your like a human balloon 🎈 

    2. WhoDat

      WhoDat

      That's the "pot belly" from "Pulp Fiction!" Hot as hell. :)

  2. Maria Alive

    The gaining "C U R S E"

    @dcc Thank you and that's what I'm hoping for. It's a long rant but I hope to put this all together at some point and that it'll not only help me but future gainers and perhaps feeders. When I started feeding one of my partners at the time I was always in this endless cycle of getting turned on to feeling guilty. I hope this somewhat helps because no one needs to disable their loved ones ( unless they've consent ) all in the matter of sexually gratification. I was dumb, young and very inexperienced when I came to this scene, I didn't know any better in the beginning and listened to anyone who'd message me for the first 6 month's . Now I know that it's way more important to find a stable way to gain for myself because I don't want to disappear like that again. There are so many models that have a lifespan of 2 years and then disappear because they're gaining so quickly or doing it in a way that isn't sustainable for the long run. This afternoon I'm going to get myself a gym membership and focus on growing my booty. My appetite will increase and I put on muscle quite easily, I'm just going to do this my way and the way I feel good physically. Plus, who's doesn't like a big round chubby booty..?
  3. Maria Alive

    The gaining "C U R S E"

    @throwaway56342 I got my stool samples tested twice last year since and did a stomach endoscopy. I haven't had a colonoscopy yet but also haven't had any lower-abdomen issues either. The funny thing is I've been able to put on muscle, I just can't seem to put on fat on it's own! I've never really gone back to normal eating because I'd indeed get the same effect; I'd lose a little muscle and drop all the fat within weeks. ( Is there any way to place spoiler..? I know not everyone wants to read about doodoo 💩~ ) Stools are very important to look at from a health point of view and can actually tell you a lot about what's going on... but aside from when I just got sick my stools were a little dry but they're normal now. No signs of malabsorption/undigested food or a rim of fat that'd show gall bladder problems. Also when I do notice having some digestive issues, this is what I do and hopefully some other people will have benefits from it. We all know about probiotics/prebiotics, there still aren't any studies that I know of that show any improvement in pill/supplement form. So instead, I get it directly from the source: Jeruzalem artichokes! If I'm in a hurry I'll juice them together with (get fresh ones if possible!) ginger, turmeric, beets and celery and if I didn't have any other dinner plans or people coming over I'll eat them instead. IF you've never ate them be prepared for the worst gassy experience of a lifetime..but believe me if you have any type of stomach discomfort caused by digestive issues, this has always helped me within 24-hours. I do have to add, this is all my own experience, haven't found studies supporting my theory either - just that it's a lot cheaper and doesn't have side effects ( aside from farting 🤷‍♀️)
  4. Maria Alive

    The gaining "C U R S E"

    @Chimaira10 Whey protein sadly doesn't do it for me ( They're absolutely delicious though so I can imagine! ) I've tried several in the past while bulking up and all they gave me was acne and stomach aches. I've been on 2-3 vegan protein shakes a day the first time I was gaining. I've been looking at an alternative one which has 394 calories per 100 grams. Here's a little info Ingredients: Ultra Fine Scottish oatmeal (gluten) (42%), pea protein isolate (22%), brown rice proteins (7%), quinoamine (5%), medium chain triglycerides (MCT oil), flaxseed powder, maca root powder (Lepidium meyenii), skimmed cocoa powder, natural flavors, emulsifier (sunflower lecithin), natural sweetener (stevia), thickener (xanthan gum), DigeZyme ® enzyme complex (amylase, protease, cellulase, lactase, lipase). Nutrition per 100g Serving per 100g Energy kJ / Kcal 1659/394 1659/394 Fat of which saturated 9.5g 2.0g 9.5g 2.0g Carbohydrates of which sugars 43.7g 1.7g 43.7g 1.7g Fiber 6.4g 6.4g Egg whites 30.2g 30.2g salt 0.82g 0.82g
  5. Maria Alive

    The gaining "C U R S E"

    @henke26 Thank you so much, I had a hard time accepting my 'new body' but I'm finally there after months of grieving. I know it sounds dramatic but that's what I experienced, weight shouldn't be an identity but it's such a big part of what gets om off sexually.. So myeah. I'm just happy to hear there are people who find me pretty no matter what ❤️ I'll continue to work hard and hopefully I'll have something to show for it this year. @Guzzledownsweets That's true but still, I made promises to not only my followers but also to myself and felt like I let everyone down. I had all these video's planned, I had customs waiting ( almost finished my queueso I can get back to public video's @S77 as well as FINALLY create content on this amazing welcoming platform I was hesitant as well because if I'm making stuffing video's here, there also need to be weight gain results... but I'm just gonna go for it and more importantly, enjoy the journey like you said. Also that recipe sounds simple and delicious! Parma ham is probably one of my obsessions and used to order it every day during my holidays in Italy. I also use olive oil or colza oil with herbs on bread and toast it for a little while 😋
  6. Maria Alive

    The gaining "C U R S E"

    @aspartamedoublesgains I actually know this, I don't know if you've seen my video's but I always drink Cola zero or ice tea that has aspartame or ginger in it so indeed I'll feel hungry for longer AND it bloats like nothing else combined with food. Is it correct that aspartame also increases carbonation maybe? If only young me knew I had to gain fat, to gain curves but I was a dumb teenager that thought it had to be hiding somewhere in my bone structure
  7. Maria Alive

    The gaining "C U R S E"

    @John Smith I didn't know they also had it in oil form! Definitely picking it up this week and see how it goes. I'll update this thread with any diet changes, product reviews and perhaps pictures as well. I studied 2 years of dietitian/lifestyle in college, couldn't finish it because I had a bad cycling accident on my way to one of my exams..so yeah. I always have the internal struggle of knowing what the consequences are but..Being too turned on to care in a lot of cases.
  8. Maria Alive

    The gaining "C U R S E"

    @>_< 0_0 I'm going to look into a gym nearby again since I'm going nowhere at this rate, if I'm not able to gain fat I'm at least able to give myself a little push to gain muscle and fat combined. + a bigger appetite has never hurt anyone 😉. It just slightly collides with my kinks but..booty gains..🍑
  9. Maria Alive

    The gaining "C U R S E"

    @Gusto You're absolutely right, I should almost gain more then that I'd say. For people who don't know I'm 5"2' / 160 cm and 25 years old. I do have to add that from my entire exercise history, my highest muscle percentage was 43%. Now I'm moderately active and I'm still on 37.4% muscle mass..I know my scale can be off by 3% but even then it's probably higher then the average starting gainer. I'm personally not sure, fiber does of course have effects for weight loss and has been shown in several studies that people who eat fiber have slimmer waistlines compared to those who don't. So in a way it's counter productive BUT... There's nothing worse then trying to stuff yourself while you're all backup either so I probably need to find a better middle ground. I also don't know if people notice but I go from a vegan breakfast to a vegeterian lunch and to animal products at night. I do this latter so I'm almost always hungry for my next meal because it leaves your stomach faster. And to get back to a mainly junk food diet, I've actually been there when I was together with my 'first feeder' I think 80% of my calorie intake was junk. We even had Burger King twice a week before classes started in the morning...Great times but I was actually at my skinniest ( and he was incredibly frustrated..😶). I can't post pictures as I was under 18 but I've never been able to gain from junk food on it's own. Also worked at Mcdonalds when I was 16-17, ate most of my lunches/dinners there for a year and actually LOST an unhealthy amount of weight back then and came back when I stopped working there. I also don't exclude the idea of added stress maybe? I'm not sure if it fiber can inhibit calorie/fat absorption but I've always remembered this article from dr. Michael Gregor https://nutritionfacts.org/2014/09/23/will-the-real-paleo-diet-please-stand-up/ I know there was also a short video summary of 5-6 minutes somewhere but I can't remember the title... TLDR; within the article it's shown that the original paleo diet almost had more then 100 grams of fiber a day and people averaged on 3000 calories a day - of course these people were a lot more active then we were but are our digestive systems so much different then those of our ancestors? I can't tell for sure. I remember mentioning coconut milk, avocado and almond butter smoothies somewhere in my thread or old blog, who knows if it helps but it's definitely something I'll continue as it tastes delicious . PS: I try not to come across as a know it all, but by eliminating certain theories we can perhaps find the source/cause of this all? Just want to tell everyone who already commented that I appreciate the help and effort 💕
  10. Maria Alive

    The gaining "C U R S E"

    @Trebreh This is actually what my home doctor thought since the weight loss was so drastic and fast, so you weren't that far off. I immediately got tested last April and luckily no thyroid issues. I also got tested on my pituitary gland, kidneys and I always request a blood checkup every 6 month's to see if I'm doing well nutrition wise - It was all good. Later on I also got my gall bladder checked, also no issues to be found there. I absolutely get what you're saying about iodine but I get about an average of 80-120 μg a day from food intake, I'm no absolute expert either but to me it doesn't sound dangerous? and the only time I do get an overkill on iodine is when I eat sushi..but who doesn't really 😅 I should've probably added some of the tests I got done last year but it's been so many, I can barely keep up with it.
  11. Maria Alive

    The gaining "C U R S E"

    Well ehm, I've been putting the idea of asking for help on and off the past 4 month's. I'm having trouble gaining the weight back... That's why I'm making this a separate thread from my weight gain updates, I know not everyone wants to know the story and just wants to enjoy imagery - and there's nothing wrong with that! But I actually want some opinions, theories, experiences or just anything really as I feel like I've tried everything within my knowledge. Hi I'm Maria Alive and started my weight gain journey by the end of 2016. A brief summary of the month's prior: before getting into the shadow 'fetish realm' I worked 30 hours a week in a supermarket, did heavy lifting/stocking up the shelves and used it to pay for college. I also did weight lifting from the ages 16 to 23, cycled 10 miles everyday from age 11 - 18 and was also into part time modelling since the age of 18. Lastly.. I was also vegan for almost 4 years but look where we are now. I was always super slim and could eat anything I want without gaining until I started bulking/lifting accordingly and got to 65 kilo's / 143 lbs ( and stayed that way for 2+ years. ) Suddenly more photographers said it wasn't flattering on camera... So, I decided to lose weight cause modelling was something I enjoyed and wondered if they were perhaps right. I lost 10/22 lbs within 2-3 month's a little before becoming 'Maria Alive'. I did it the 'healthy' way - ate 1800 calories a day, exercised once a day, sometimes twice and got more photo-shoots as a result - but I've never been unhappier with my own body and never felt more TIRED - so I quit modelling and wanted to start something on my own. The result - I weighed 54 kilo's / 121 lbs at the beginning of my gaining journey, I got professionally measured at a clinic and had a measly 16% body fat. Since I pretty much crash dieted myself into losing the weight I bounced back within a few month's to 65 kilo's / 143 lbs... ....especially as I stopped doing cardio and started lifting again 3 times a week. Then the sudden plateau came and people started questioning my legitimacy as I openly talked about exercising as well as eating a mostly vegan diet. I quit exercising and started to introduce animal products back into my life. A part of me still thinks that not only because of the crash diet, I was able to gain as quickly as I did..but I do wonder if I continued weight lifting if it's maybe the push that I need? A part of me likes the lazy piggy lifestyle, eating, living in sweat pants and tiny shirts but so far that lifestyle doesn't help me gain at this point. And you can't gain muscle without gaining fat in the process. By the end of 2017 I gained up to 69 kilo's / 152 lbs and finally had a healthy amount of body fat - 25%! What I noticed my first time gaining is that it's actually not thattt difficult to get from 122 lbs to 143, once I hit 143 I get stuck at that weight and have a hard time going higher then that. I had to eat almost 5000 calories a day to upkeep 71 kilo's/ 156 lbs and I've never been able to break this curse. Back to 2018, I got incredibly sick which caused me to go from 71 kilo's / 156 lbs to 55 kilo's / 122 lbs within a span 6 weeks. I got super emotional about my loss as I worked incredibly hard to get there, giving up my passion for cycling, weight lifting and spending a lot of time, money and effort everyday to upkeep. Once I lost the weight I didn't recognize myself, my movements were foreign to me and every time a mirror would pass me by I'd get a little emotional. I wouldn't go as far as body-dysmorphic but I felt like a big girl stuck in a skinny twig's body. - recent thumbnail at 120 lbs I enjoyed every step of the way of my weight gain journey or I'd have never done so in the first place, I feel a lot more confident, sexier and just the person I expect to see in the mirror once I'm above 143 lbs - my ultimate goal would be 200 lbs but I don't dare to dream of it now. I was always excited to hop unto the scale or to measure myself in the morning/during video's. I also enjoyed getting degrading comments from work, friends, classmates and even family. I remember my aunt commenting every time I'd grab food during Christmas, saying that my thighs were already too big and that no men with self-respect would enjoy an ass as big as mine 😶 I got news for her but ehm.. let's continue! I've been trying to gain again since September 2018 as I started to feel better, my lowest weight this summer was 116 and got up to 127 by the end of October but..sadly, I was just ( TMI; constipated ) from getting used to bigger portions again. Now my body is used to the bigger portions, I'm eating about 3500 calories a day, sometimes it's more or a little less if I've been busy. I do stuffings during the weekend and have supporters that sometimes send me extra food in exchange for pictures during the week. So my current problem is: I've been trying to gain non stop since September 2018 and this morning I was back at 120.3 lbs with 18% body fat even though I've been eating nothing but extra take-outs the last 6 days and getting an average of 3900 calories a day. I feel stumped, what am I not doing correctly? Calories in vs calories out has never worked for me and I'd love insight from whoever has an idea. To give a summary of my current daily intake (on a budget) Breakfast: Soy yoghurt 150 grams, muesli 60 grams, raisins 40 grams. Shake: 4 large banana's ( roughly 600-700 grams ), strawberries 100 grams, blueberries 100 grams, flax seeds 15-25 grams, almond milk 250 ml. Lunch: 2 cooked eggs, 4 slices of whole wheat bread with 60+ grams of hummus. Shake: 2 kiwi's, 1 orange, mango 40 grams, 2 banana's ( about 200-250 grams ) and avocado 90 grams. Dinner: potatoes 500+ grams, broccoli 300 grams, champignons 150 grams, mozzarella 25 grams, kidney-beans 90-160 grams, fish-sticks ( 7-8x 75 grams) Snack: I'll often have a whole Tony Chocolonely bar, Milka, Reeses, eggs waffles with Nutella, salted nuts 😏, take off; burrito, quesadilla, taco's, fries but it depends on my mood 🤷‍♀️ That was one of my diary entries this week, my breakfast is always the same, lunch changes up a little but I'll most often have a vegetarian option so I won't feel too heavy/sleepy if I have to go anywhere/have to work. Dinner changes everyday, but the general idea is that I have that amount of carbs, protein and fat and when I'm eating out for dinner I'll just have as much as I please/can afford. This is what I can do for now, I'm also slowly adding more meat into my diet and hope that speeds thing's up. This is also mostly how I've started gaining, I've tried a lot of thing's along the road to speed it things up: Fasting: I tried 20 hours fasting with 4 hours eating windows and I've tried a couple of 3 day-water fasts to see if it could possible slow my metabolism. Results: It was horrible and actually caused my metabolism to go overdrive instead of slow down and made me feel plain miserable. Macro-nutrient focus: I'd mostly focus on getting more protein, or more fat-based or even mostly carb/sugar based to see where my trigger was. Fat/protein based created an illusion of gaining but, just got me feeling icky/constipated and carbs made me feel good but didn't add anything significant to the scale either so I continue to stay sort off..balanced? Schedule + meal prep: I did this for a quite some time, I'd meal prep my dinners and most of my lunches on Sunday and prep my breakfast/shakes every night before bed. I even went as far as setting timers on my phone to remind me if I was still a little full from my previous meal and I'd take a cool-box to wherever I was heading. It did help but the results weren't baffling enough to continue the effort + eating only 1-2 different meals gets very boring, I know a lot of people are like 'Just drink cream or olive oil every night or chug vanilla ice cream.' but thing's get boring quickly if you do eat them. every.single.day with no change - try it! Protein shakes: I got pretty sick off them and like I said above even had to throw away a full batch because asbestos was found in a lot of protein powder brands in the Netherlands. I remember whenever I'd drink them I'd keep having hiccups, burps that I couldn't control.. it was embarrassing to say the least :') at home it's all good fun and once i find a safe option I'll jump on the bandwagon again. Supplements: I've tried, fenugreek, maca, and I used to have some kind of tea that'd stimulate your appetite but it's been so long, I can't remember.. I had a good experience with all 3. I think fenugreek was the most effective and had the least disgusting taste. It just wasn't a major difference in weight but I did notice my chest being slightly fuller. Allergies + sensitivities: I'm very sensitive to milk, cream and raw butter. I can handle most cheeses, ice creams and yoghurts without a problem but I try to not make them a big staple in my diet. Of course I'll have pizza, cheese burgers or a big tub of ice cream once in a while but, realistically it's not something I can do day in day out. I'm interested in apetamine but due to some health issues and medicine being based on 'healthy DNA' I have about a 99% chance of having side effects. They're not too bad as I've read but I'd love to hear real experiences from anyone and if it's worth the possible temporary discomfort. Lastly, I try not to eat 2 hours before I go to bed, I used to do that a lot but I actually damaged my teeth from silent reflux - so that was an expensive mistake during my first round of gaining! Other possibilities ? I'm seriously open to try anything. Like I said I'm slowly getting my body used to more meat again, hoping heavier proteins, saturated fats and added hormones will help. I'm motivated to try anything as long as it's within my given boundaries. I know it isn't ideal and I'm probably crazy for trying to get all my micro's in whilst gaining, I just hope it's a way of maintaining any form of health while simultaneously destroying it with my kink . Weight gain is never healthy, unless you're underweight or you're adding muscle mass - but even then there are limits to what's healthy. Conclusion I'm a whiny little b**ch but believe me when I say that I'm dedicated. I know I don't eat as much junk food as most feedee's/bbw's. I try to save that for most of my video's or special occasions as 1. It should be achievable with healthy foods and the same amount of calories 2. I get bored quite quickly, as easy as that 3. I used to have really, really, really bad cystic acne until I changed up my diet at 16 and 4. I'm hyper-mobile and gaining weight is heavy on the joints ( hello extreme lumbar curve~ ); I hope by maintaining my micro-nutrients/energy levels that I can maintain a good posture and strong bones. I just want to be my fat plump self again but have enough energy to go about my day. I never got to the point where my belly was sticking out naturally but got massive thighs and a 42 inch booty instead. I miss being a 85-D (EU) and I miss having chubby cheeks. I also had very chubby upper arms and non-existing elbow, but I loved every inch of myself and.. actually never truly felt like a part of the community because so many said I was nowhere big enough and not gaining as fast as I should. I want to be chunky Maria by the end of 2019 and to whoever took the time to read this massive rant, thank you for listening and I hope we can find a way around this! Feel free to ask for any additional information. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- NOTE: I'll openly answer every question people have as I hope it'll not only help me but others who are also struggling to reach their goals. But if there's something you might want to share with me and wouldn't feel comfortable having it out here - feel free to dm me. PS: Sorry for the wall of text but I wanted to get everything in here PPS: To anyone who's still questioning my legitimacy on gaining, if I wasn't into this I'd hop on the bandwagon of selling foot- fart- or any other fetish that has a bigger customer base, but I want to show thing's that I actually enjoy. There's nothing more miserable then watching a model do something they're not genuinely getting off to IMO. TLDR; I'm the worst feedee ever, help me gain plz.
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    Happy Thanks giving - 5341 calorie stuffing - Mashed potatoes - bacon - chicken - Oreo ice cream milkshake Let me start of by saying Happy Thanksgiving to everyone, I'm of course not from the US but I'm from the Netherlands. But I still wanted to join in and make my own Dutch version of this festive meal. I got myself a whole lots of chicken, creamy buttery mashed potatoes with pieces of bacon, and an Oreo ice cream milk shake for dessert. If this doesn't add on the pounds, nothing will. I start off by measuring my belly, we're at 30 inches. After that I decide it's time to put on my booty shorts, wiggle them on my thick ass and start stuffing myself... My goal is to pop these buttons off. After eating a few bites I let you hear how hungry I actually am, my stomach is gurgling and growling while consuming a whole lot of these mashed potatoes - 3572 calories to be exact... After I finish my mashed potatoes my belly already grew by 3 inches and I'm starting to feel it. I'm feeling super stuffed already in these shorts.. but after some rubbing I continue eating two chicken legs. My face is getting al greasy and I'm constantly letting out burps to make more room for food.. I even slip out one little fart, whoops. Now there's only one thing left for me to consume and that's 10 oreo's mixed with whole fat cream and vanilla coconut icecream, one of my personal favorites. I've started to gag a little bit and it shows how much I've actually eaten that my body is starting to reject it. I keep it in like a good little piggy and finish the weight gain drink. Now, I've consumed 5341 calories.. I didn't even pop the buttons on my booty shorts. As my punishment I'll rub mysself with creamy butter and show you all my curves in my tiny shiny pink bikini... My belly ended up 34,5 inches round and it might not be my biggest growth wise but it's definitely my biggest calorie stuffing within an hour. 348,9 grams of fat, 178,2 grams of protein and 355,9 grams of carbohydrates all inside my poor stuffed stomach. Please leave a review if you enjoyed the video! CALORIE BREAKDOWN Mashed potatoes - Potatoes - 3 lbs - 1026 calories - bacon fat “spekvet” - 200 grams - 1010 calories - rapeseed oil - 60 grams - 539 calories - butter - 110 grams - 811 calories - whole fat milk - 300 grams - 186 calories Whole chicken legs - grilled chicken legs x 2 - 736 calories Oreo ice cream milkshake - vanilla coconut icecream - 200 grams - 881 calories - 10 oreo’s - 506 calories - whole fat cream - 75 grams - 107 calories ____________________________________________________ a total of 5341 calories 348,9 grams of fat 178,2 grams of protein 355,9 grams of carbohydrates

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    It was a normal day, like any other... I went to the bathroom, got undressed and hopped into the shower, I'm always looking at myself in the shower, to see if I gained any weight and just generally, like to touch myself... but this time I felt weird when the water touched my skin. After a while I start to feel dizzy and collapse. I feel my body changing and, only a few moments later... To find out, that I became a mermaid. There's only a few things I desire now and most of all, that's to fill my belly up with delicious sea food. Now I've become a mermaid I want to roam the sea and eat all the delicious fishies I find along the way, but you can't do hunting on an empty stomach! I attempt to eat as much sushi as I can possibly manage and two cans of coke to wash it all down. I'm starting of with a 30 inch belly while enjoying these delicious pieces of fish. My belly grows and grows through out the entire clip. I'll burp, massage, and stretch my belly button with chopsticks so you'll get a decent view of what's inside.. After getting up to 34 inches I can't bear being dressed any longer, and take my seashell bra off while playing with my boobs. Ultimately I end up eating 36 pieces of sushi, 3 shrimp sticks, those made my belly a whopping 34,5 inches... after measuring I drink up the last of my coke and definitely reached the 35 inches. My belly is incredibly tight, the largest and roundest it has ever been! My pregnant looking gut spills over my entire lap and rub that smooth belly some more with oil.. my stomach has been quite noisy through out the entire video so I decide to lay down and enjoy my large belly producing loud digestion sounds... to be continued xx.

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